Trying to paint the paper…

Living in the piece of a paper.
I am trying to paint the paper.
Left in the curse of time.
I am trying to build a new time.
Shattered with the sudden storm.
I was left in a beach of thorn.
The pain was unbearable and immense.
Like someone put an iron rod in the chest.
Tears came and heart wrenched.
Wondered how I got the bloody drench.

Shame acts and broken trust continued.
I stood and fought till I can continue.
During the midst of day and night.
Life gave me tremendous fight.
Sacrificed everything which I had.
Only thing left was the time which was bad.
I lost the battle with a brutal end.
Tried a lot to avoid that end.

Loved the fact that I still survived.
Even though I had no reason to survive.
I left the world which was never mine.
Building a new world which will be mine.
Life is such of twisted events.
Tackling them is prominent.
It takes time to forget and forgive.
Hence life must be lived.
Some time is required to move on.
As…
Living in the piece of a paper.
I am trying to paint the paper.

– Ashish Kumar

Walking in the streets of life…

Walking in the streets of life.
Never found a reason to survive.
Ups and downs came frequently.
I lost my momentum suddenly.
Hoping everything to be fine someday.
I started to live in disguise everyday.
Gone are the days when I used to smile.
At a sudden, started to give fake smile.

Heart wrenched and trust broke.
At that moment I lost all the hope.
During the midst of day and night.
I was looking for a ray of light.
Gave all my effort whenever required.
Never got what I always deserved and desired.
Leaving all these in the buried part of the heart.
That left me in the situation with hurted heart.

Life is full of ups and downs.
Without struggle one can’t get a crown.
I have fallen and fought the situation.
Now its time to create a new option.
A journey to reach a new destination.
With more confidence and positive determination.
Although the chances are few.
As…
Walking in the streets of life.
Never found a reason to survive.

– Ashish Kumar

Doing the karma…

Every time I see a good sign.
It ends with a negative time.
During the midst of day and night.
I never had a time with positive light.
Darkness spread all the way around.
Momentarily losing my sound.
Betrayal, trust broke.
Hope ended in a sudden stroke.
No regrets what I have done for others and what others had done.
I am just doing the karma.

Lost in the darkest side of my own shadow.
Searching for a place which is at least hollow.
Heart wrenched and soul teared.
Repetition of the same, I always feared.
Eyes became watery and face was red.
Walking alone, I was a living dead.
Swallowed everything in the deep of my heart.
Its true from inside and outside, I was hurt.
No complain for all the mess which have come.
I am just doing the karma.

Unwanted situations coming again and again.
Its time for me to convert this to gain.
Reality needs to be accepted.
Rather than to remain frustrated.
Time will change this is for sure.
For the present I need to assure.
No regrets for all the pains which have come.
I am just doing the karma.
Walking on the path of dharma.
I am just doing the karma.
Just doing the karma.

– Ashish Kumar